Understanding.

If this is how she felt like everytime she had to sit there and think about life ... I love her even more. I can feel her pain and loneliness, and I'm sad I added to her pain. I hope that one day she will heal and understand that in life there is only one in this world who has never forgotten, hurt, or disappoint. All of the pain and hurt in the world wasn't what he wanted for us because when we hurt ... He weeps for us!

I'm starting to understand that a part of healing is finding contentment in yourself and through no one else, because at the end of the day, it's you against the world.

Honest Heart-to-Heart.

The future becomes unclear and fighting through the storm without you has put us on different ends of the battlefield. Our love has matured and so have we, and though maturing love grows, so do maturing adults … and sometimes that part of growing may be apart. We had the ultimate plan that seemed so perfect, but interference seems to capture us at a stopping point and we can’t quite figure it out anymore.

Seeing others in their honeymoon stage makes me bitter, and even more so as we start on our journey through the power-struggle stage, and I don’t even think we’re supposed to be there yet? With each new day, the security of “us” becomes more out-of-balance and your presence becomes of a familiar stranger.

If I have your heart and you have mine, reassure me that this is the ultimate plan, because if I have to return your heart … I don’t want it in pieces.

Uncertainty.

Remember to laugh. You'll find happiness somewhere along the road, even in the most un-assuring situations.

Still Breathing.

Photograph: ohh_its_anne

Making a little more room in my heart for growth. Though, it is hard to grow, when you can't seem to let go. The fighter inside of me went on a hiatus and left me here, wondering if certain things are even worth it anymore. I assume it is okay to not understand sometimes, sometimes things are just better that way. The world is always moving and life becomes confusing and by the time you realize it, everything is already in black and white. Those are the times when a reminder of assurance is crucial, but sometimes it just doesn't exist. Drifting away from the right things just feels so right sometimes, but strangely enough, you'll find your way back to the comfort of a more familiar path, covered in old footprints and then reality sets in and you somehow just know that this is where you were meant to be ... and everything is going to be okay.

5 Years.

I’m a whole day early, but I just can’t stop thinking about how far we’ve come since the first day I met you, and of course, the weeks that followed. Thank you so much for being my best friend, my rock, and my sanity. I am so much stronger now because you took me away and showed me how love can conquer all.

Thank you and Happy 5th Anniversary … can’t wait for 5 more years. =)